chili con carne

hellooooo.

i don't want to go back to school. it's been a long weekend. i didn't get to blog yesterday, so let me tell you what i did yesterday and today.


yesterday, i had to go to school at 4 in the morning to meet up with theo, laura, samantha, and nathan, and my choir teacher ms. schultz because we were all going to chico. but we had to pick up nathan lol cuz iono he took too long at home. it was finally the day we've all been rehearsing for!

we rode in ms. schultz's old school station wagon. i gotta admit, that car was kinda comfy (but not when it's full lol). i brought my huge hello kitty pillow and a bag of stuff along with me.

when we finally arrived at chico at around 8ish-9ish, we ate breakfast at this one restaurant. i forgot what it was called. we were going to the one that we went to last year, but they were closed, so we went to that one instead. i got corned beef hash (?), hash browns, toast, and scrambled eggs. it was good. after that, we all paid for our own meals and gave a tip. i think i over tipped. i always overtip lol oh well

then we went to chico state university. we rehearsed for hours and hourssssssss. from 10-4:30. my feet were KILLING me from standing and singing for hecka long. we had breaks but man was i tired. i didnt get a very good sleep in the station wagon and i had a stiff neck.

at like around 12:30 or something like that, we ate lunch. i didn't buy lunch cuz i wasn't hungry. i just ate grapes and gram crackers. sam and laura brought em. it was good lol. then nathan got me icecream at coldstone. i still have to pay him back. (note to self: pay nathan $2.75 lol) i got Birthday Cake Remix. it was goooood. (:

oh yeah and when we were walking around looking for a place to eat, we saw this COOL wall with people walking! iono who the men on the wall are but yeah it was cool. so we took a pic with it lol.

anyways then we rehearsed a lil more then at 4:30 got ready for our performance at 5.

at the beginning of the show, the chamber choir of CSU sang like three songs. i really like two of the songs they sang. i forgot what one of em was, but it was something like "don't forget me" or something. then i really liked that they sang "chili con carne" by the real group lol. that song's in my head right now.



then we finally performed. we sang 5 songs: The Scout, Exultate Justi, The Pasture, The Heavens are Telling, and My Good Lord's Done Been Here. some kid screwed up the whole thing at the end of the pasture, i think it was. he/she whoever it was sang at one of the parts where it was sposed to be an instrumental break lol



before we went home, we took pictures in our choir robes. yeeeeah we were helluh raw because we were like the only ones in robes. everyone else had to wear black dresses and tuxedoooos.
when we were taking pics, i was like "ooh! let's take a funny one!" then theo put his hands up like a director picturing a scene and said "hold it right there isabel! ur perfect, funny" and i was like =O and then LOL ms. schultz clicked the camera and it became a kodak moment

so after that we were all exhausted and samantha, theo, and i were in the car with ms. schultz in her station wagon cuz laura and nathan went home with their families. i sat in the back. i had the whole back row to myself lol. so i laid down. the back seat was one of those seats were it faces the back window. so it was pretty cool cuz it felt like the cars behind us were chasing me. so when i was lying down i could see the stars in the sky! omg it was so pretty, i havent seen so many stars in a long time. cuz we were on the road and theres not much light there. there was only ONE star that shined really really bright. then i thought i saw a moving star. i was like WTF! but it was a plane

so we made a stop to mel's diner. it's so cooool. it's 50's themed. ms. schultz said the original one is in SF. i wanna go! i ordered some cheesesteak sandwhich thing with hoagie bread or something lol. there was sposed to be mushrooms in it but i asked them not to put it. the waiter was like "aw u dont like fungi?" i was like, "uh.. no...?" lol why would i ask them not to put it

then i got home at around 11 or 11:30 or something like that, i forget. i was so tired. but i still stayed up til 3. i couldn't sleep. i'm crazy


so today i woke up at

i got home at around 11:30 i think. i forgot.



then today, it was pretty simple. i missed church cuz i woke up at 12:30 but got outta bed by about 1:15. iono lol i stayed in bed all morning just to pass the time. when i was lying down for hecka long i looked thru the pics we took yesterday and the vids of us singing.

then i ate cheerios, went on the laptop, the laptop became stupid, so i used the computer, then i watched some making the band 3 on the computer. dude Q is soooo sweet to Dawn.

so yah then at 6:30 i went to round table pizza with the family. it was good.

and here i am, on the computer lol. just like 10 years ago.

blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

oh what a day. i think this is the most boring day in senior year so far. i woke up at 6:30 instead of 6, and got to journalism at 7.

in 1st block we all sang in spanish. my teacher said if we go in front of the class and sing it, it might be extra credit. i would do it because i know like three songs in spanish. i just need to pronounce the words clearer and i'm good.
2nd block was okay. we talked about names. i always think about how we all look like our names somehow. like i look like an isabel. i guess. lol. then Lizi in my class said that theres this thing about if your name starts from A to i forgot what letter, you're hecka smart. It musta been A-H because i'm not super smart.

yup. i'm not super smart.. at lunch i signed up for interact real quick and had to go to choir rehearsal. it went by really fast.

3rd block was okay cuz we had a sub today. dillon helped me out a lot on math. i understand it now. i just hope i dont forget it all.

after 3rd block and during break sirek gave me back my jacket from the night before since i forgot it at his place. i didn't even know i left it there. so i just took it and said "thank you" kinda quietly and walked fast cuz i was looking for acky because i didn't finish my lil interview with him for my newspaper article on community service. i felt....iono.. when i walked away from him like that.. i couldn't even look at him. i just said thank you and went away. blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

4th block was easy cuz we had this guy from western career college come in and talk to us. he was kind of funny but he talked for a whole hour so he wasn't that funny anymore lol i got hecka homework done while he was talking (and yet i'm still awake this late..).

i don't know why but i don't like talking about college. i guess i just feel really unprepared.. i haven't written a personal statement or anything yet. i haven't visited any colleges except for berkeley, but that doesn't count because i actually went there for the summer already, and i know i won't get accepted in there.

i forgot to mention that yesterday i had a really long talk with my spanish 1&2 teacher ms. shuguli. she's my favourite teacher. she really made me want to kind of cry because she is such a great inspiration. but of course, i sucked it up and didn't show a tear lol. she told me how if i have an opportunity to go far away, i should take it because i can't just stay here forever, because if i do, i will never move on and learn how to adjust to different places and be on my own. i told her i kind of wanted to stay around here in the bay, but she was right, going far away would be best for me to learn how to be by myself. "no more always with mommy or daddy," she said.

so after school i thought i was going to the library to work but turns out it was closed. vivian, karissa, and i joked and said we wanted to go into the library so bad. it was pretty funny.

then i sat at the bricks again with my books and stuff by myself. waiting for my dad to pick me up feels like forever when i'm just sitting there alone. it's like gawd, i wanna go home already, get me out of here

so yeah after that, i ate and went on the computer and did hw/aim/myspace/youtube, the usual.

then my brother played a familiar song on his PSP. i listened to it closely. "turn the page" by bobby valentino. wasn't that song from like freshman year or something? i forget but i remember that song's old.

at around 11:40pm justin called. we talked for like iono, 20, 22 minutes? that was nice. i haven't talked to him in awhile. i haven't talked on the fone in a conversation that long for awhile either. i miss late night conversations. too bad it's not summer anymore.

welp gotta wake up in 5 hours. i don't even know why i write on these blogs. i'm spending 15 minutes of my sleeping time

time machine, time machine

today was very interesting. found out a lot of things. but it's weird because i had already figured, but for some reason i didn't listen to myself again.

then again it's all the same. it's like i like to isolate myself or something.

time machine, time machine.

i really miss marjorie, like really badly. it's been too long and i really need her comfort right now.


i don't feel like doing anything. i have two articles to write, a binder to organize, and math homework to do tonight. i'll let today's stuff go.

hopskotch, then turn around.
that dream turned real.

another day, another night.

peace, love, & yeah,
-!sabel

bottle it up

<-- i like this picture, iono know why

today was very lame. but it's fine. lol

so this morning i woke up at 10:16am and noticed my back hurted like a mother. omgaaaaaaah it was horrible. i think my scoliosis is getting worse =\

after washing up, i ate a bowl of cheerios. it was really yummy. i hadn't eaten cheerios in a long time.

then i went on the computer and signed on aim ahahaha the first IM i got was an offline IM from last night from sergio

sergio (2:14:24AM): why do u always do that
ahaha. he asked that because sometimes when we don't talk at all during the day, i IM him goodnight right before sign off.

i thought it was quite funny because he never replies to my goodnights. (= but yeah i don't know why i always do that either. but then like we don't talk during the day, but when we do, it's like a dead conversation lol so i thought why not save the energy for my fingers and not IM him first since the convo will later be dead anyway. jk. but yeah sometimes i just don't wanna sign off w/o telling him goodnight because it wouldn't feel right. but then again, i think he wouldn't care. he never really cares about stuff like that i guess. it's like yeah why don't i just IM him during the day and then say goodnight later, but i'm always the one that IMs him first, or if he's the first, then i'm the one tryna make more conversation, and i'm tired of it sometimes so i just say goodnight(:


<-- i forgot what i was doing but i look retorded lol

so then yeahyeahyeah i was on the computer for a bagillion hours and i talked to ben about stuff. ben's really helpful. he's like that tough dude with a soft heart hahaahah that fool tries to make me feel better and give me advice and stuff. it sucks because i wanna take his advice but then i'm just so scared all the time. i keep complaining and crap to him but i didn't notice it til now. but he doesn't mind too much lol even tho he tells me to shut up but like yeah he's right i needa bottle it all up. yeahyeahyeah. he really understands my crap lol i haven't had a friend like that in awhile.



hmmm so during those bagillion hours of computer i did hw.... EARLY! woohoo go me. i'd be sleeping right now i wasnt doing this blog lol i'm wasting minutes of my life but oh well

then upstairs we cleaned the extra bedroom and my dad painted it. light blue and brown. i like the blue walls because it reminds me of a beach or a blue sky. i like the brown because it reminds me of chocolate lol. but yeah that room is gonna be a gym. we have exercise equipment and stuff but never really had a place to put it all, so it's all gonna be in the new gym. shawn and i wanted it to be a game room so we could put all the board games, video games, and computer and stuff in there. and maybe a pool table. but then yeah we really needed a place to put the exercise stuff lol and my mom wants to use the gym more. i will use it when we get a threadmill. i'm fat




so like after that my relatives came over for an aftershock party from yesterday. hahahaa we call it aftershock because it's like an afterparty. but yeah we all ate and stuff and my cousin and his gf and shawn played scrabble while i was doing stinkin hw. i don't get calculus at all dude i'm so lost and i'm so scared. i cannot afford to fail this freaking class this year.


okay so yeah that's pretty much it lol my day was very simple. night yalllllll

Wake me up when September ends.

hellohellohello.


today was very long.


i woke up early to get to church by about 8:30 for my grandparent's 56th wedding anniversary. after that, we all went to Denny's for breakfast. while we were waiting, i sat next to my grandpa and asked him if grandma looked beautiful. "No," he replied and smiled. i was waiting for his just kidding. but he didn't say it LOL he pulled a tim.

but nah i guess he was joking tho lolllll we laughed about it, it was funny.

at denny's i ate eggs, sausage, bacon, pancakes, and hashbrowns. omgggg gotta love hashbrowns. and i drank their ojmango.

after that i stayed home with my little cousin hanah while everyone else went to costco. hanah and i played ring toss lol we did this odd little skit where we win 5 cents for playing and use the money we won to buy a job. iono it's weird lol but it was actually pretty fun.

oh yeah and i called pro image to reschedule my appointment. i kinda wish i took it today but then at the same time i'm glad i didn't because i am soooo not ready. iono what to do with my hair or makeup and alla that girly crap. i'm taking my pics october 22nd now. ugh that's a wednesday. it's not even gonna be a CPT day. i shoulda taken advantage of being able to take it today since its a saturday. oh well too late.


after hanah left, i went on the computer. the computer was boring so i napped. i had the oddest dream..

i was hopskotching lol. he hopskotched near me and threw his rock at me. it was a silly thing, he just threw it to mess around. he turned around, i asked where he was going, he shook his head and went away. i wanted to tell him not to go away, but i didn't.


yeah.. so i woke up to my brother telling me the VMAs was on. i never got to watch it til today. lol hecka late, i know.

after that i went to my grandparents' house for dinner. i thought it was gonna be a huge party but i guess not. then the cousins and i played scrabble. i never really played a real game of scrabble til today. shawn won -_- shawn and i are noobs at scrabble but we owned our cousin ray today.


after that i got home and went on the computer and here i aaaaaam.

today went by slow but this week went by fast. i'm really sleepy now.

i would sleep the some daaays away. wake me up when september ends.

welp, i think people are coming over tomorrow to watch the raiders game. ugh i didn't know it starts at 10 in the morning.

time to go to sleep.
another day, another night.

peace, love, & lol,
-isabel

idontcare friday

long time no blog(=

it's interesting to continue on the same note as my last blog, because i am currently feeling the same as i did that day. this blog could be the same as last time's, just with a tad bit of changes:

howdy.

i'm bored and sleepy, but i'm gonna blog anyway.

i dont remember a thing i learned in calculus today

creative writing class wednesday was kewl cuz i got to sing poetic lyrics to the class for extra credit and people liked it

i didnt eat so much today. one meal.

i think im gonna be emo

i need to workout soon but i'm too lazy

not the end

not good night

lol that was pretty emo sounding. i dont mean to sound that way but thats just my current mood right now. i am very confused and lost. that's pretty much the way to put it.


i have a million things on my mind, i can't stand it. but who cares, right? i think writing like this on a blog is kinda stupid because i'd rather write it in a real journal--on real paper. but i'm too lazy to write lol i'd rather type. so i'm pretty much being a hypocrite right now.


anywaysssss..

hmm. where to start, where to start....

well for one thing, school started. seniooooooor yeeeearr. wooo. honestly this year so far hasn't been great because it's actually really boring. but then again, it's been like a month since school started so i shouldn't complain too much.

this year is my loneliest year.
it's my busiest, but my loneliest.
1) i can't talk to my best friend marjorie as much because we are both busy w/school and such
2) cindy and i don't have class together, therefore we don't see each other as much, therefore we don't talk and mess around as much, therefore school is boring lol (cindy probably loves this part jk)
3) sergio is not around anymore because he graduated
4) i'm drifting from many people since school started for some reason.



marjorie is doing her thaaang on manteca idol. wooohoo! i hope she makes it in the finals. we had a really kinda deep talk nights ago about college. it was really sad to talk about if we were going to the same college or not because we both really wanted to finally go to school together again, but then at the same time, we know we have different plans and paths. if we really do go on these different paths, i hope we intersect a lot lolllllll that sounded lame as hell

cindy. i still talk to that chick of course. dude she made me realize that we say "dude" a lot, dude. i miss the summer because that was all the cindabel time in the world hahaaha. cindy if ur reading this we need to make a real episode lol W/O BC's! hahahahahahhahahahaha oh man none of you guys but her know what i'm talking about.

hmmmm. sergio. he commented me telling me that he missed the good old times we had and stuff. i was surprised because sometimes i feel like he doesn't care. so that was nice that he said that. really nice. last time i talked to him was yesterday. he seems all well now, and that makes me happy. i was going to tell him my problems, but it's no use. he doesn't reply to them much (i don't expect him to) so i don't really talk about my crap, i'll bring them up but it the subject quicky fades. he tells me some things now like his problems and i cheer him up before i cheer up myself i think. but it's okay because then again, it distracts me from myself, and i like helping people better than thinking about mis problemas personales(?)

i am a loner at lunch. one of those kids that goes around to look for something to do, or acts like she's busy so she hides her being alone. i'm always so glad when i have choir rehearsal during lunch, because i dont have to walk around searching for company or for something to do. now that i think about it, i should just stay in the library and do hw during lunch lol i wont be procrastinating at lunch then. i don't even eat during lunch. i dont bring anything. food at school is a ripoff, and i cant drive to go off campus.


but anyways let me tell you about my day. my mom told me today was "idontcare friday."

6:20AM.
oh crap gotta wake up to study for spanish. i got ready for school, then in 0 block journalism, i studied spanish since i had nothing to do because the upcoming newspaper is almost finished. i have three articles to write: being in honor choir in chico state, the new drama club, and oh shoot i forgot the other. anyways.


1st block-spanish
it was alright. i had a spanish quiz. it wasn't too bad.

break
i dont remember what i did during break lol

2nd block-creative writing
we had a sub and we had to write a story about AHS being attacked. ian, joseph, and i wrote about the school being attacked by bunnylions. the bunnylion got stabbed with a flagpole and all of arroyo was flooded with little bunnylions forever.

lunch
i bought a senior tshirt and sweater. lol in my opinion, i don't like it that much. but oh well. they'll be something for me to keep.
i had practice. it's for the honor choir in chico. samantha, laura "peach," theo, nathan, and i are part of it. ms. schultz was disappointed in me because i didn't know much of the music.. i didnt have enough time to practice, okay >.< all of a sudden the bell rings five minutes earlier than it was sposed to. then i heard it's because there was a fight in the cafeteria. that's dumb. out of all places wth jk


3rd block- calculus
very depressing class. we moved seats then we get our pop quizes back -____- not very happy with that score. then during the firedrill i found out even one of the SMARTEST people i know got a lower score than me. =/ after the firedrill, samantha tried helping me understand some of the trig we did. blah blah blah okay 4th block now


4th block-gov't
we had a sub. woooo. 2 subs in a row, thats pretty good. then we had a vocab quiz. it was harder than i thought wth. we watched the simpsons in class and then did worksheets and then yeah we got out.


afterschool
i worked in the library and checked off books. then i see rocky and chris. i thought they were gonna work in the library too but then they had an ACE meeting. i asked them if i could be an officer. they didn't sound like they wanted me to be. it kinda hurt my feelings. i would really like to be an officer because i wanna be more active with ACE and other clubs on my senior year, and because rocky, chris, and the other officers are my friends and they seem fun to work with. but i realized that they prefer to reelect themselves (which i personally think is unfair), and it's not like i can do anything about it.. they don't want new officers, i unfortunately had to feel unwelcomed, and that's the way it went.


by the time they were leaving, the library was closing, so I walked with ed to sireks house, where everyone else was going. there, mable took that man bible from the guys and she, susan, and i, ran into the bathroom to read it. sirek's bathroom door's lock is broken, and the guys kept trying to open the door to get the book back, but mable&susan leaned on the door while i stood on the toilet and leaned on the door too. we learned a lot of things from that man bible lol.


then later when the bible got boring, i looked thru the 06-07 yearbook with tim and ed. tim saw my picture and said, "whoa you look different. you're not as ugly." how nice of you tim...how nice. so i laughed it off and asked, "oh so i'm stilllllll ugly, just not as ugly as before?" and he replied, "yeah." i kinda waited for a 'just kidding' but i didnt get one. uh... i dont think he was kidding. i felt insulted but at the same time i was like whatever.. i kind of have to agree on that one.


then we saw senior portraits and i realized i didnt call the studio to reschedule my appointment! my appointment is tomorrow (...or today lol) but i needed to reschedule it last minute -_- last minute, all right. they were closed, and they took no messages.

after that i got so mad. then i sat on sirek's stairs and listened to andrew's ipod. ben tried to ask if i was okay, i said yes, and he didn't believe me. his instinct was right. then i noticed that andrew had a spice girls song in his ipod lol. then after acky asked if i was okay, i said yes, and then after making sure i was okay he went back to sirek's room where everyone else was.


it was like, great. another thing to worry about. i have a many problems, including a really devastating one i don't wish to mention right now. anyways yeah then i laid on sireks couch and listened to "how to save a life" by the fray. i put it on repeat. lol sorry andrew i still didnt take it back off repeat.


i kind of fell asleep for like a couple minutes and then susan woke me up and all 12 of us went to chilis for dinner. dinner was aiight. i ate the tripple dipper. i've had it before so it wasn't something surprising. i oughtta get something different next time.


i don't know what it is but today something bothered me. it still is, but i'm partially getting it off my chest through this stupidblog. it's actually more than one thing on my mind thats bothering me. i think some people noticed my mood because they asked me if i was okay. i would just nod or w/e but they know it's a lie, because as tim told me why he knew there was something wrong with me, "[i'm] always happy." wow tim you think i'm happy after u called me ugly? jkjk.


i feel bad for acting the way i did at dinner. i now realize it musta been selfish of me to act the way i did. i mean like, i didn't do anything at all, literally. i didn't scream at anyone or do anything bad, nodbody did; i just showed no emotion, or at least i tried. i just didn't wanna kill anybody's mood because that's not something i ever intend to do. i guess i haven't been myself lately. i hate it but i can't help it. it's really that bad and i hope i get over it soon.


after dinner rocky dropped me off and i didn't get to say bye to the others in chris's car. i don't know where they went. i woulda liked to go but my mom would keep calling me, and i didn't want anyone to notice my mood anymore. it probably would have been better if i didn't go at all because i was too uncomfy today. haha eh. interesting how my day wasn't idontcare friday afterall. it was more like ikeepthinking friday.

so then i got home all tired and stuff. it's almost 2 and i shoulda been sleeping. i have to go to church early at 8 in the freaking morning for my grandma&grandpa's 56th wedding anniversary. hopefully i'll remember to call the pro image studio to reschedule my appointment.

time for bed now.

peace, love & lol,
-isabel