falling cheerios and a lincoln

(hahahaha)

whoooo today was swell despite the ugly cold runnynose weather.


this morning- i didn't wake up late! aaaand right when i got to school i found a $5 bill on the ground LOL that shure started my day

then in buckley's we had a test part 2. i hecka forgot about it but it was alright (luwissa and i are smart hehe). during the test i ate cheerios. lol one fell out my mouth or my hand, iono where, and it rolled off the desk and on the floor. i couldn't find it anymore though. it camoflauges with the [ugly] tiles in the classroom. so i was like aw poor cheerio lol cuz it'd be kicked around, swept, or smooshed someday. poor lil fella has to suffer. or maybe he'll go on a journey from a dust pan to a garbage can? i ain't know lol i'm dumb

so 2nd block i had english, which was kewl cuz we didnt really work cept do a reading log and work with our partners. jordan was my partner. we had to write a simile and a metaphor for "war is..."

"War is like a thunderstorm." -Jordan
"War is a BIG scribble." - me lol

i think mine sounded really kiddy compared to the other kids that wrote "war is a nightmare" or "war is pain" or whatever the heck alla em wrote. loll but hey, no one else used "scribble."

after thaayyyt was lunch time and kenny and i chilled in his car while he studied. well actually we warmed up, not chilled. because it was super cold outside and in his car it was hecka warm (ha. ha ha lol) but yah know what i means

then third block i worked on my paper bracelet and necklace. i'm almost done with it, i just needa finish putting the shiney coating over my beads. i really like it. it's pretty lol it's actually something i'd wear. nonuh that corny colorful i'dneverwearthattoschool crap. (:

then fourth block- choir. oh boy my throat hurts from there holy crud. i love singing and all, but man only on my free will hahaha jk. i was half asleep while singing, believe it or not lol. then my eyes went wide awake cuz i realized my mom's earring that i was wearing was gone. i was like "oh crap!" so i asked to go to the 'bathroom' and went ALLLLLLL around the school to retrace my steps. yep. i went thru EVERY HALLWAY lol i'm a loser. but dang dude it was cold! i felt stupid for looking down and searching left and right on the ground for that freaking earring. i even went to my 3rd block class to find it cuz i remember still wearing it in that class. lol the kids in that class musta thought i was super odd looking around like a dog.

so when i gave up, i sighed and my breath fog (wtheck do u call that?) showed in the cold air like i was smoking lol. i was bummed cuz i think i've lost my mom's necklace before.

so i went back in the choir room and WOOOOOOW there it was. on the floor. under to my chair. i went all around the freaking school just to find that thing. unbelievable.

lol

so yup after school while waiting for my dad to pick me up (which took forever), i ate some more cheerios haha. i was like wtheck dude cuz i kept dropping cheerios on the ground. what a pig! ya

so yeahhh poor little cheerios.. chasing pavements. then they'd be crushed by some pedestrian that has no respect for cheerios whatsoever hahah jk wow i really am bored

anyways i went home and ate some popeye's chicken and made some invitations for my cotillion. then i went to men's warehouse cuz there was a problem with the tuxes, so we had to get that straightened out.

then when i was gonna shower and took off my shirt a cheerio fell to the floor lol wow i really am a pig

and yeah lol thats pretty much it. my aim's being stupid so i'm pretty much bored.

what a weekend.

whew. i guess things are resolved now, and i'm glad.

that "fog" has cleared up now. i'm glad about the choices i've made.

i know this prolly isn't the last thing i would ever stress about for my cotillion-- there's a lot more of that to come (oh boy) but hopefully they won't be as bad

the three day weekend of heck is almost over. homework time ): lol

distress of stress (if that makes sense)

in my last blog, i said that a lot of times i feel like i want to cry because of all this stress. and yup, i cried.


yesterday, saturday, was the most shitty day ever. it takes me this much to make me cuss. i think many people know why, and it might feel a little wrong that i'm blasting this on here, but expressing how i feel is what a blog is for.

i am angry, sad, frustrated, and disappointed.

i must say that the extra stress that has been put upon me is very uncalled for, and i really don't need it. i really never thought in a million years that i would have to go through this, but because of what happened yesterday, i have no more room to be patient about all this anymore.

i've tried so many times to be patient with everything, but yesterday was my boiling point, as it probably was for certain people.

i've mentioned so many times how appreciative i am of everything but i feel like i don't get any appreciation back. i feel highly disrespected, and so does my mom.

there were sooooooo many times when things went wrong with cotillion practices, and my mom would warn me or complain about something, but then i always end up defending someone in my court. but this time i have no reason to defend anymore. my mom is right, and i feel really sorry to say that. i have mixed feelings about everything.

honestly, i don't know where we're going with this right now.. i hope we stay friends, but

i didn't know you were gonna hurt me like that.

i hope so

oh geez it's been too long lol

my eyes hurt a lot right now but i feel like blogging cuz even tho my eyes hurt, i'm hecka awake and bored.

i don't really feel like catching up on things lol cuz i take way too long putting it up here but whenever something comes up then yeah.

but real quick i should mention lol this week was the new semester which means YAY CHOIR AGAIN! and 'aw no more creative writing class' (and no more spanish either) ):

i miss creative writing lol it was such a chill class and everyone was lovely. i loved going into class everyday and just being random and having like not too much hw lol and just being with the people. and my teacher mr. kerr was cool too.

on that note lol here's a video i made of the class






oh yeah and i've been singing at cafes! lol i love singing at cafes.




at the next cafe show we do, i'm gonna jam with my homie ian lolll it'll be a surprise, sure. ian's in his lil band thing called A New Hope. check em out (: "Her" is my favorite song, if you ask me.



anyways so today was practice and it was fun. i like practices because i get to be with my friends and we get to kick it more than usual on the weekends (well, i do) and yeah. it makes me happy to see all my closest friends with me together, especially because not everyone initially got along, but i guess they're cool with each other now? i ain't know lol






but a lot of it was stressful too. i lost my voice more because of it. i hope it comes back tomorrow!

in the morning we went to newark to get fitted for the dresses. i rode with brian and christine while everyone else was in sergio's car. it was really nice of him to drive us because he didn't need to be there. and yeah i didn't even ask him to drive everyone, nguyet just brought it up like the night before and yeah. maybe he's bored in the morning lol iono jk

we got there by 11:50am, and the business card fot the store said they open at 11. but when we got there it was closed cuz there was new business hours (the store opens at 12 now.) so my mom called the lady Lolita and she was nice enough to rush there cuz we were waiting.

when we were waiting for the lady to come and open the store christine was tryna teach me this dance (that i can't even dance lol) and then yeah some people were hungry and stuff. i told sergio and them they could eat first if they want. sergio was mean because i was saying iloveyou!!! and stuff and he was like "go away" and what not. i know he's kidding but at the same time geeeez he does that all the time. we're like bro and sis i guess. we annoy each other. but theres times when i'm serious and he doesn't take me cereally.. i don't like it. i actually feel like the older sister sometimes because yeah. i try to be cool with whatever but then there's a lot of times when it's like what i say doesn't matter. i try to include him in practices cuz i feel really bad that marjorie's not always here for practices. i get that he might be impatient about her not being there, but i get really impatient sometimes too yah know..

today i got really upset when i came from the kitchen at practice today into the garage and everyone was looking at porn on my laptop. that wasn't funny.. usually i'd be like ha haaaaaaaaa or whatever but dude. it's my house. if u wanna look at porn, do that at some other place, not my house. i felt really disrespected, i have to be straight up about that. i'm hearing different things about what happened and who started it.. but i'm choosing to believe one person because i really trust her. when i asked sergio why he did what he did he denied everything and i guess i got too mad.. thing is though is that he still lied to me and said he had nothing to do with it. um yeah i don't buy that, sorry. and like he does so much for me, but still, what he did was innappropriate.. i just got really frustrated after that, especially after he said "fuck this" and left.

marjorie and natalie are coming over tomorrow to practice and to go with me to newark for the dress fittings. can't wait to see marjorie again. i just wish i saw her everyweek and that she and natalie come to every single practice, because we really do need everyone everytime. i want them to be here (and it's super hard since they're so far), and this doesn't just apply to the two of them..

not everyone has been attending practice. well, the girls at least. i'm surprised it's the girls not showing up, and that the guys are usually here. but still, my cotillion's coming up and i cereally need everyone -_- we've really only had like one practice with EVERYONEEEE here together. lol and um that's not good.

what's hard for me is when i'm told that they have 'something to do' on the day we have practice. it's hard for me not to be lenient omg lol. ugh. but maaaan. i need the practices actually part of their schedule ):

everyone's been doing a good job catching up though, it's just the group parts that needs. work.

i'm honestly not having as much fun in cotillion practices as much as i thought i would. i really wanna cry a lot of times cuz i'm so frikkin stressed about it, but i try to convince myself it'll all be worth it in the end. i really hope so.

Happy (Day After) Thanksgiving!

OH EM to the freakin GEEEE


i haven't written in here in forever lolll. i missed blogging haha.

i haven't had enough time with calculus crap in my way and college applications ruining my free time lol.

well some pretty interesting and amazing things happened in the past, what, 26 days? lol. but i can't remember too much of the order or anything, so i'll just write whatever comes to mind.

oh yeah so like we got a new president-elect BARACK OBAMA! yeeeeee. let's hope what he says is true. i hope he turns out to be a REALLY good president. lol i'm hecka late in stating this in a blog. i'm probably the last one in the whole world to blog about that.

anyways, so yeah it's pretty cool to think that i was alive when that kinda history was made. lol because most of the history i learn about is when i wasn't even born yet lol. so yeah our kids will read their history books in class and they'll see "On November 4, 2008, Barack Obama was elected as the first African-American president." lolll or something like that.

ANYWAYS since that news is kinda old already, i'm moving on to the next subject lol.

dude.. gas prices!!!!!!! i saw on a sign that the price was $1.89! LOL THAT'S SO WEIRD. it hasn't been that cheap since like the earlier 2000s! lol

okay enough about politics. this blog is about me me ememmemememememmememee, not america. lol jk

i'm eating cheerios at the moment. yum

okay anywhoo so like i FINALLY started having cotillion practice. oh man it's such a relief to know that we got stuff done. hahaha. my birthday's coming up in march (march 1), so i don't have too much time, but eh, my mom's helping of course.

my court comes over every week and we dance in my garage hahaaha. it's fun, but it's reallly stressful. i don't think they understand how stressed i am with this lol. it's really hard to get everyoneeeee together, and i really reallly REALLY need everybody to attend the practices. because of someone's missing, someone is dancing with no partner. (marjorie and natalie's not coming to the last two practices was my fault though O_O i thought i told them about practice already. ugh i'm horrible.)

i'm a very easygoing person, but i know that sometimes i can't be lenient anymore. i hate asking for people's time, but this isn't really an exception for me to let them do w/e. man sometimes being too nice is hard lol

& dude. i'm cheographing (sp again?) all the dances. ugh wtheck dude lol i don't even dance that much. and the birthday girl's not sposed to do all the work ):< really seems like forever when it comes to not seeing each other. i'm really happy when i'm with marjorie. she never makes me mad or sad lol iono how she does it. kay so. what else. lol. oh, duh hahahahaha it was thanksgiving yesterday! (:
it was a very good day. i loved yesterday. i ate and didn't care about my weight lol and i played with the new puppy!!!! her name is claire. she's a golden retreiver. she got her name from Heroes' Claire Bennet cuz she's blonde lol. now that i think about it, her name coulda been Bennet. lol it sounds more doggy. but oh well, the name Claire is still pretty. and she's CUTEEEEEE! i love playing with claire.

man so everybody in the whole freaking nation went black friday shopping cept me. hahaha. ugh no tengo dinero. i spent it all last week. NOT SMART of me at all lol. i think it's kinda silly that the sales are in like 4 in the morning. lolll i remember when stores made it at like 6 AM. and some were 5AM. and this year, most stores are doing 4 AM. wtfudge lolll.

koit 96.5 is playing christmas songs now! dang dude it makes me realize how close christmas is! i love christmas. lol i love new year. i love the whole holiday season. you could keep warm at home with the people you love. you could cuddle with yo lovahhh. loll. now that i think about it, i've never had a boyfriend during the winter. hmm. lol.. so that means no cuddling with a lovahh or exchanging gifts with a lovahhh for me. aha.

anyyyyyyyyyyyyways.. i deleted my mariah carey youtube video hahah. it was getting annoying because the video wasn't always playing, and because, believe it or not, i've gotten messages on youtube telling me like "DiD y0U kn0 uR ToUCh maH b0Dy viDe0 D0n`T w0RKK??" LOL that typing is annoying. and yeah i sang the song ugly anyway so woohoo it's deleted lol it had more than 7,000 views though. that was cool lol

my right hand is itchy. my mom told me that it means i'm gonna get money soon. (why now???? black friday is like. over!) haha. oh man i hope i do get money ahahah

well time to go to my grandma and grandpa's for lunch! lol it's the "aftershock" of the thanksgiving party. we do that everytime we have a party hahah we throw another get together and finish the leftovers from the night before.

byebyeeee

i'll add more details and stuff later if i remember anything else.

go back in time

it's daylight's savings time! so it would actually be 2:28 AM right now haha. one hour back, woohoooo.

so i suddenly feel less tired lol because of that. how weird.

but then i feel like i'm gonna be sick! ugh i'm scared! my throat feels sore and my nose is kinda runny

ugh i think it's because i danced in the rain today... lol (:

that made my day though. this week the weather has been veryyyyyy rainy. i used to hate rain but i think i love it now. i don't know. i think it's because we haven't had rain in sooo long.

but yeah i sang and danced in the rain hahaha sounds so broadway-corny but hey it was fun lol

so like today i was supposed to go to kenny's birthday party, but he ditched his own party (before it even started). so i was like wtheck?? he went to crash someone else's party. why he gotta do that though? i mean like they live across the street from each other or something like that, but then dude. c'mon now. at least give a heads up, especially after i asked many times if his party is still gonna happen.

so i was at home the wholeeeeeee day except for when i went to church. ugh i wanted to go out man. i haven't in awhile. i noticed that nobody invites me to things anymore lol. i think i noticed that already but yeah i let it go. but dang freal tho i coulda been out! i don't care about how the weather may be lol

so hmmm this week has been busy-ish? went by quickly though.

last week on friday it was halloween! lol i had two costumes on accident. on thursday at the october thirty fest, i was a fairy princess. i was gonna wear it the next day to school on friday, but i thought it was gonna rain be hecka cold, and i didn't want to wear the dress from my costume. so when i was deciding what to wear that morning, i thought: hey! why not just stay in my PJ's? hahaaa so i was a baby in pajamas i guess lol i brought my snoopy stuffed toy, put my hair in pig tails, and put on some freckles. the freckles kinda looked like popped pimples in pictures lollll -_- but oh well. i napped instead of trick or treating hahaa i think my costume suited what i was doing very well.

october thirty fest was fun. i volunteered for the Drama club... sorta. lol. (=0

i spent a lot of the time there with karissa's cute little sister! we kinda matched costumes hahaa
so many people asked if she was my sister, and those that knew i didn't have a sister thought she was my cousin lol. i felt sort of bad because karissa wasn't with her instead, so i kept taking her back to karissa. lol then the 4-year-old ran to me o_o lol that was cute though. makes me want a sister. well actually i think i'd prefer having a little little brother haha. i wanna be daddy's only girl lol jk

so lately i've been reallly planning my cotillion and it's so stressful because i can't even find a place to hold it. and also i haven't contacted all the people i chose for my court yet =x
i am veryyyy late with planning >.<

i'm wondering how it's all going to turn out because like i said before, maybe not everybody will get along? and yeah i really hope everyone can make it to practices. my mom told me i would have to make every practice mandatory because if i hire a cheographer she doesn't want to be paying him for teaching the dance to only some of us or else it'd be a waste of moolah.

my theme colors are pinkish, gold, and brown. i'm not sure about the theme yet, maybe bows or hello kitty. or both since hello kitty has bows.

okay welp my head has been bothering me since 12 hours ago. i think i really am gonna be sick =((((((

i'll put up pictures later lol i'm too lazy. come back later kthanksbye.

!$@83L'z a HYPEBEAST

So like i should be finishing spanish hw right now but eh. i'll do that later lol

i feel like bloggin mah noggin

lol that was lame.


anyways so what did i do today.

oh man i'm gonna tell you right off the bat, today was pretty depressing. do i hide it well? eh depends on the person that knows about alla my crap haha but yeeeeah... )=

so it all started in 2nd block when we did these poems.

we had to write our poems based on what we saw in ink blob stuff that psychologists use.

my teacher mr. kerr said that what we see kinda tells us about who we are or how we're feeling.


ugh everyone saw something happy, like a man on a pogo stick, or a penguin leaning against a pole, but i saw a lonely girl.

ugh dude that hecka sucked because i couldn't see the pogo stick or the penguin or anything else. i kept seeing that freaking girl. ugh.

so i had to write a poem about it and he made us read ours out loud in front of the class.

i read that and the whole room was silent. man that was uber weird. even the teacher was quiet! like he looked like he didn't know what to say.

dude my writings in that class have been pretty sad. i like, need to stop doing that. in the beginning of this year all my stuff was happy. i wrote happy random little stories lol but lately they've been all emo and crap. gaaaaaaaah

so anyways yeah the rest of the day was just okay. i was a hypebeast today lol jk. i just wore one of those scarves and yeah. and i wore my new flats but they kinda hurt my feet! but oh well they're pretty lol

so today i asked sirek if he could be my escort for my cotillion and he said yes. i was kinda happy/relieved because he was my first choice. i thought he was gonna say something like "i'll think about it" or just "nahhh" or something lol. i didn't know if he would really want to be my escort because we kinda drifted =/ but thing is he's like one of my closest guy friends and yeah

oh yeah and man dude i don't even know if i'm gonna have a cotillion anymore because it's so hard to find a place. ugh i hope i do though. i'm only 18 once.

so i've been planning who's gonna be in my court. i didn't really tell them that i chose them yet lol. and i realized that some people don't like others dude.. man that's the thing when it comes to me, because i'm friends with all of them and some of them dislike each other. i hope they learn to deal with it though. like i hope they do it just for me? lol iono. but then yeah dang i didn't realize until a while ago that not all of them get along. aiiiiya.

dude i just realized that senior files is due soon. i didn't even tell my mom and dad about it. oh shooooot lol oh well. i don't even know how it goes! like do we just put it on a paper and give it to the yearbook? or do we just write w/e and give it to them? confuuuuuuuuuuuusing!

OKAY well time to sleep lol i'm really tired. ugh it's 1AM already.

gnight (=