what a kid. haha i kid, i kidd.

so like today i went to Jo-Ann's fabric and crafts store to look for stuff for my cotillion then i found this cute fabric and i'm gonna make a skirt! lol i love going art stores. it really inspires me to make things.

on that note, earlier i made my own button earrings! they cute. i'm gonna make a pair for marjorie tomorrow.

also today i went to sanrio. it's been a while! i got a cute hello kitty ring (oh crap iono where it is already) and hello kitty sticker books lol

i'm such a kid

hahahah and on that note, my mom took me to the ghiridelli chocolate factory outlet store so we could buy chocolates for the party favors. but they were closed!!!! i was hecka sad. i wanted some chocolate ): dude what kinda chocolate store closes at 5:30?!??! that's way too early. what if a kid like me goes insane and NEEEEEDS chocolate at 5:31?! what? they won't let me in? lol jk

anywhoo so yeahp i'm not sleepy. i'm hecka awake cuz i ate cotton candy hahahah i got it from the dollar store. it's pretty good! not cheap quality. i used to get it a couple years back. yummm

also today i went to target to look for shoes and i asked the lady if they had new arrivals, and the lady asked her coworker in spanish if they did. lol it was pretty cool cuz i knew what they were saying. theres a lot of times when i hear people talk in spanish and i just wanna bust out talking to them like MIS ZAPATOS SON ROJO! even though i don't have red shoes

my throat hurts though because i've been singing too much in choir. grr

alrighty well time to go sleep now BONNE NUIT! (:

no more of this

i'm not going to overthink anymore. if i over think, i confuse myself.

today and yesterday was quite splendid in some ways, very interesting in other ways.

1) presented topic in AP government without knowing crap about the topic
2) super fast 2nd block!
3) District Music Festival rehearsal 3rd and 4th block
4) sad with a headache at IKEA
5) asked to prom... twice
6) cool birthday gift in thee mail
7) free quizno's

starting off with yesterday the only cool things i remember was receiving my birthday gift from glenn in the mail and going to IKEA. iono why i put it in capitals like the logo. anyway, after school my dad told me there was some package for me. i saw it and was like o_O? and then when i realized it was a birthday gift i'm like =O because i never get stuff like that in the mail! it's coooool! lolll. it's a pink Vado from Creative. thank you glennorooni<-- for some reason my Mozilla Firefox isn't telling me it's mispelled or anything.. lol i wonder if it's a real word???so then later that day i took it to IKEA! i took vids of my trip there (i'll post em later) and then we got a bunch of vases for my cotillion center pieces. then i saw these frames that i wanted for my room.. but my dad wouldn't let me get em. =( they were $5.99 each, and i wanted 6 lol

sooo yeah then today in ap gov we presented our topic: deficit spending. lol i hope i sounded smart. at the end of the presentation, i said "who here knew what deficit spending was before we presented it to you?" and hecka people actually raised their hands. lol i forgot that ap gov has smart people... so of course they'd know what it is. haha. so i continued, "well..... if you didn't... you do now!" and then i smiled really big like a 2nd grader.

2nd block went by super quick. lol

At lunch (or break? i forgot) i got asked to prom and i'm like whoa what lol i thought it was in june?? i thought he was kidding but then i think he was cereal. it was super random. lmao almost as random as my birthday party on sunday. but i ain't know what to say because i ain't know if i would go at all or if i would go with him or if i'll even have money. ugh dude i heard they raised the price like $8623813 more. (exaggerating but it seems that expensive!)

during 3rd and 4th block today, i had a DMF rehearsal with SLz and Royal Sunsetchoir kids (i think i'm forgetting another school). It was pretty kewl except for the fact that i was really losing my voice. mrs. schultz made us sing like oprah singers. yes... oprah. (lol jk that was a typo and i liked it.)

then later at night my other friend from de anza high asked me to prom LOL that was even more random. who knows maybe he was kidding but then at the same time he didn't say any jkays.. so maybe not? but yeah. that'd be cool to go to another prom like that. but dude their prom is in like at the end of march i think. that's hecka soon.

then my mom took me to quiznos because we had free subs coupons lol and they expired today. the man wasn't very nice. he said they expired yesterday, but on the coupons said they expired on the 3rd. and it was the 3rd. lol what a noob

after that my mom and i had to look for cheap stones to put in the vases we got in ikea. when we were on the road, my mom realized she didn't know where we were getting them, so she had to know right away so she could know which way to turn. so she was like "WHERE DO WE GET THE STONES? WHAT'S CHEAPER? DOLLAR TREE OR 99 CENTS STORE?!!?!?!?!"

okay this blog is getting long lol i'm going to stop now byebye

EIGHTEEN

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO


i feel the same though. lol


today was SUPER interesting. no lie lol

VERY RANDOM bday party! with many unexpected people lol

earlier today was sposed to be just a family dinner party thing at my house, turns out 92374923 friends came to my house! haha. it was actually quite weird since it was seriously a surprise (even to my mom), but it was aiight. there were helluh heads tho. it was "hotter than africa" in my house, as andre says.

i'll post up pics when i get to.

i wish marjorie was there but she was performing at her boyfriend's open mic in manteca. i wish i went there and performed and kicked it with her instead tho, but the madre didn't let me

welp tomorrow is a new day lol i feel fresh! well not really. i still feel the same. i don't think it really hit me yet-- that i'm eighteen, "legal," and that, well, i'm an adult.

the next two weeks ahead are gonna be super crazy. cotillion's coming up and i don't have much done yet! eek!

welp g'nights

feboooweary fourteenth

it was february the 13th and i think i actually did sorta get bad luck.
i figured out lots of stuff (and i'm not very happy about that).

i'll talk about my friday some other time, when i'm in the mood.

bye

freeze

now where would i go if i had a time machine..

tell him

yelloooooo

today is not a significant day in my life

lol i tried sounding sophisticated. i dont think it worked

anywhoo this morning was cool cuz i got to draw on ed's itouchphonething! lol i drew spongebob, blosssom from powerpuff girls and polkadots. it was cooooool

the whole day i didn't eat cheerios today. today was a ritz crackers day. lol

for some reason i noticed that since the new semester started, it's been feeling a little different. i ain't know why. like it's not just the schedule change, but i think it's because people aren't around as much (cutting perhaps? lol) and because everyone's out doing sports and stuff. i ain't know. i miss a lot of thangs from last semester and last year or whatevaaaa

this school year is passing by rather quickly and i think it's time i need to live up the next few months.. i've only partially been doing that. this senior year has sucked though because of stress and because nothing at school has been going on. like.. the spirit at our school sucks buttcrack! i'm sorry but dude it's horrible lol really. i think that's sad considering its senior year, and its unfortunate for me to think that there are more sad times than happy times to remember. lol wow that was emo of me to say

so lyyyyyyyke since i got home i've been listening to some adele and lauryn hill. adele got a grammy wooooo. i like how she's not a skinny celeb. anyways yea adele and lauryn hill. i love their styles. their styles are almost the same in some way but they're not at all. kinda weird. the song i repeated the most is "tell him" by lauryn hill. i want to find an instrumental for it so i could maybe perform it one day.

which reminds me that ian and i gotta jam again to work on our song for the next cafe gig! hahaha

so yeah my back hurts like a motherrrrfudger so i shall go to sleep now ):

i needa start putting up more pics on this thang again

falling cheerios and a lincoln

(hahahaha)

whoooo today was swell despite the ugly cold runnynose weather.


this morning- i didn't wake up late! aaaand right when i got to school i found a $5 bill on the ground LOL that shure started my day

then in buckley's we had a test part 2. i hecka forgot about it but it was alright (luwissa and i are smart hehe). during the test i ate cheerios. lol one fell out my mouth or my hand, iono where, and it rolled off the desk and on the floor. i couldn't find it anymore though. it camoflauges with the [ugly] tiles in the classroom. so i was like aw poor cheerio lol cuz it'd be kicked around, swept, or smooshed someday. poor lil fella has to suffer. or maybe he'll go on a journey from a dust pan to a garbage can? i ain't know lol i'm dumb

so 2nd block i had english, which was kewl cuz we didnt really work cept do a reading log and work with our partners. jordan was my partner. we had to write a simile and a metaphor for "war is..."

"War is like a thunderstorm." -Jordan
"War is a BIG scribble." - me lol

i think mine sounded really kiddy compared to the other kids that wrote "war is a nightmare" or "war is pain" or whatever the heck alla em wrote. loll but hey, no one else used "scribble."

after thaayyyt was lunch time and kenny and i chilled in his car while he studied. well actually we warmed up, not chilled. because it was super cold outside and in his car it was hecka warm (ha. ha ha lol) but yah know what i means

then third block i worked on my paper bracelet and necklace. i'm almost done with it, i just needa finish putting the shiney coating over my beads. i really like it. it's pretty lol it's actually something i'd wear. nonuh that corny colorful i'dneverwearthattoschool crap. (:

then fourth block- choir. oh boy my throat hurts from there holy crud. i love singing and all, but man only on my free will hahaha jk. i was half asleep while singing, believe it or not lol. then my eyes went wide awake cuz i realized my mom's earring that i was wearing was gone. i was like "oh crap!" so i asked to go to the 'bathroom' and went ALLLLLLL around the school to retrace my steps. yep. i went thru EVERY HALLWAY lol i'm a loser. but dang dude it was cold! i felt stupid for looking down and searching left and right on the ground for that freaking earring. i even went to my 3rd block class to find it cuz i remember still wearing it in that class. lol the kids in that class musta thought i was super odd looking around like a dog.

so when i gave up, i sighed and my breath fog (wtheck do u call that?) showed in the cold air like i was smoking lol. i was bummed cuz i think i've lost my mom's necklace before.

so i went back in the choir room and WOOOOOOW there it was. on the floor. under to my chair. i went all around the freaking school just to find that thing. unbelievable.

lol

so yup after school while waiting for my dad to pick me up (which took forever), i ate some more cheerios haha. i was like wtheck dude cuz i kept dropping cheerios on the ground. what a pig! ya

so yeahhh poor little cheerios.. chasing pavements. then they'd be crushed by some pedestrian that has no respect for cheerios whatsoever hahah jk wow i really am bored

anyways i went home and ate some popeye's chicken and made some invitations for my cotillion. then i went to men's warehouse cuz there was a problem with the tuxes, so we had to get that straightened out.

then when i was gonna shower and took off my shirt a cheerio fell to the floor lol wow i really am a pig

and yeah lol thats pretty much it. my aim's being stupid so i'm pretty much bored.

what a weekend.

whew. i guess things are resolved now, and i'm glad.

that "fog" has cleared up now. i'm glad about the choices i've made.

i know this prolly isn't the last thing i would ever stress about for my cotillion-- there's a lot more of that to come (oh boy) but hopefully they won't be as bad

the three day weekend of heck is almost over. homework time ): lol

distress of stress (if that makes sense)

in my last blog, i said that a lot of times i feel like i want to cry because of all this stress. and yup, i cried.


yesterday, saturday, was the most shitty day ever. it takes me this much to make me cuss. i think many people know why, and it might feel a little wrong that i'm blasting this on here, but expressing how i feel is what a blog is for.

i am angry, sad, frustrated, and disappointed.

i must say that the extra stress that has been put upon me is very uncalled for, and i really don't need it. i really never thought in a million years that i would have to go through this, but because of what happened yesterday, i have no more room to be patient about all this anymore.

i've tried so many times to be patient with everything, but yesterday was my boiling point, as it probably was for certain people.

i've mentioned so many times how appreciative i am of everything but i feel like i don't get any appreciation back. i feel highly disrespected, and so does my mom.

there were sooooooo many times when things went wrong with cotillion practices, and my mom would warn me or complain about something, but then i always end up defending someone in my court. but this time i have no reason to defend anymore. my mom is right, and i feel really sorry to say that. i have mixed feelings about everything.

honestly, i don't know where we're going with this right now.. i hope we stay friends, but

i didn't know you were gonna hurt me like that.

i hope so

oh geez it's been too long lol

my eyes hurt a lot right now but i feel like blogging cuz even tho my eyes hurt, i'm hecka awake and bored.

i don't really feel like catching up on things lol cuz i take way too long putting it up here but whenever something comes up then yeah.

but real quick i should mention lol this week was the new semester which means YAY CHOIR AGAIN! and 'aw no more creative writing class' (and no more spanish either) ):

i miss creative writing lol it was such a chill class and everyone was lovely. i loved going into class everyday and just being random and having like not too much hw lol and just being with the people. and my teacher mr. kerr was cool too.

on that note lol here's a video i made of the class






oh yeah and i've been singing at cafes! lol i love singing at cafes.




at the next cafe show we do, i'm gonna jam with my homie ian lolll it'll be a surprise, sure. ian's in his lil band thing called A New Hope. check em out (: "Her" is my favorite song, if you ask me.



anyways so today was practice and it was fun. i like practices because i get to be with my friends and we get to kick it more than usual on the weekends (well, i do) and yeah. it makes me happy to see all my closest friends with me together, especially because not everyone initially got along, but i guess they're cool with each other now? i ain't know lol






but a lot of it was stressful too. i lost my voice more because of it. i hope it comes back tomorrow!

in the morning we went to newark to get fitted for the dresses. i rode with brian and christine while everyone else was in sergio's car. it was really nice of him to drive us because he didn't need to be there. and yeah i didn't even ask him to drive everyone, nguyet just brought it up like the night before and yeah. maybe he's bored in the morning lol iono jk

we got there by 11:50am, and the business card fot the store said they open at 11. but when we got there it was closed cuz there was new business hours (the store opens at 12 now.) so my mom called the lady Lolita and she was nice enough to rush there cuz we were waiting.

when we were waiting for the lady to come and open the store christine was tryna teach me this dance (that i can't even dance lol) and then yeah some people were hungry and stuff. i told sergio and them they could eat first if they want. sergio was mean because i was saying iloveyou!!! and stuff and he was like "go away" and what not. i know he's kidding but at the same time geeeez he does that all the time. we're like bro and sis i guess. we annoy each other. but theres times when i'm serious and he doesn't take me cereally.. i don't like it. i actually feel like the older sister sometimes because yeah. i try to be cool with whatever but then there's a lot of times when it's like what i say doesn't matter. i try to include him in practices cuz i feel really bad that marjorie's not always here for practices. i get that he might be impatient about her not being there, but i get really impatient sometimes too yah know..

today i got really upset when i came from the kitchen at practice today into the garage and everyone was looking at porn on my laptop. that wasn't funny.. usually i'd be like ha haaaaaaaaa or whatever but dude. it's my house. if u wanna look at porn, do that at some other place, not my house. i felt really disrespected, i have to be straight up about that. i'm hearing different things about what happened and who started it.. but i'm choosing to believe one person because i really trust her. when i asked sergio why he did what he did he denied everything and i guess i got too mad.. thing is though is that he still lied to me and said he had nothing to do with it. um yeah i don't buy that, sorry. and like he does so much for me, but still, what he did was innappropriate.. i just got really frustrated after that, especially after he said "fuck this" and left.

marjorie and natalie are coming over tomorrow to practice and to go with me to newark for the dress fittings. can't wait to see marjorie again. i just wish i saw her everyweek and that she and natalie come to every single practice, because we really do need everyone everytime. i want them to be here (and it's super hard since they're so far), and this doesn't just apply to the two of them..

not everyone has been attending practice. well, the girls at least. i'm surprised it's the girls not showing up, and that the guys are usually here. but still, my cotillion's coming up and i cereally need everyone -_- we've really only had like one practice with EVERYONEEEE here together. lol and um that's not good.

what's hard for me is when i'm told that they have 'something to do' on the day we have practice. it's hard for me not to be lenient omg lol. ugh. but maaaan. i need the practices actually part of their schedule ):

everyone's been doing a good job catching up though, it's just the group parts that needs. work.

i'm honestly not having as much fun in cotillion practices as much as i thought i would. i really wanna cry a lot of times cuz i'm so frikkin stressed about it, but i try to convince myself it'll all be worth it in the end. i really hope so.

Happy (Day After) Thanksgiving!

OH EM to the freakin GEEEE


i haven't written in here in forever lolll. i missed blogging haha.

i haven't had enough time with calculus crap in my way and college applications ruining my free time lol.

well some pretty interesting and amazing things happened in the past, what, 26 days? lol. but i can't remember too much of the order or anything, so i'll just write whatever comes to mind.

oh yeah so like we got a new president-elect BARACK OBAMA! yeeeeee. let's hope what he says is true. i hope he turns out to be a REALLY good president. lol i'm hecka late in stating this in a blog. i'm probably the last one in the whole world to blog about that.

anyways, so yeah it's pretty cool to think that i was alive when that kinda history was made. lol because most of the history i learn about is when i wasn't even born yet lol. so yeah our kids will read their history books in class and they'll see "On November 4, 2008, Barack Obama was elected as the first African-American president." lolll or something like that.

ANYWAYS since that news is kinda old already, i'm moving on to the next subject lol.

dude.. gas prices!!!!!!! i saw on a sign that the price was $1.89! LOL THAT'S SO WEIRD. it hasn't been that cheap since like the earlier 2000s! lol

okay enough about politics. this blog is about me me ememmemememememmememee, not america. lol jk

i'm eating cheerios at the moment. yum

okay anywhoo so like i FINALLY started having cotillion practice. oh man it's such a relief to know that we got stuff done. hahaha. my birthday's coming up in march (march 1), so i don't have too much time, but eh, my mom's helping of course.

my court comes over every week and we dance in my garage hahaaha. it's fun, but it's reallly stressful. i don't think they understand how stressed i am with this lol. it's really hard to get everyoneeeee together, and i really reallly REALLY need everybody to attend the practices. because of someone's missing, someone is dancing with no partner. (marjorie and natalie's not coming to the last two practices was my fault though O_O i thought i told them about practice already. ugh i'm horrible.)

i'm a very easygoing person, but i know that sometimes i can't be lenient anymore. i hate asking for people's time, but this isn't really an exception for me to let them do w/e. man sometimes being too nice is hard lol

& dude. i'm cheographing (sp again?) all the dances. ugh wtheck dude lol i don't even dance that much. and the birthday girl's not sposed to do all the work ):< really seems like forever when it comes to not seeing each other. i'm really happy when i'm with marjorie. she never makes me mad or sad lol iono how she does it. kay so. what else. lol. oh, duh hahahahaha it was thanksgiving yesterday! (:
it was a very good day. i loved yesterday. i ate and didn't care about my weight lol and i played with the new puppy!!!! her name is claire. she's a golden retreiver. she got her name from Heroes' Claire Bennet cuz she's blonde lol. now that i think about it, her name coulda been Bennet. lol it sounds more doggy. but oh well, the name Claire is still pretty. and she's CUTEEEEEE! i love playing with claire.

man so everybody in the whole freaking nation went black friday shopping cept me. hahaha. ugh no tengo dinero. i spent it all last week. NOT SMART of me at all lol. i think it's kinda silly that the sales are in like 4 in the morning. lolll i remember when stores made it at like 6 AM. and some were 5AM. and this year, most stores are doing 4 AM. wtfudge lolll.

koit 96.5 is playing christmas songs now! dang dude it makes me realize how close christmas is! i love christmas. lol i love new year. i love the whole holiday season. you could keep warm at home with the people you love. you could cuddle with yo lovahhh. loll. now that i think about it, i've never had a boyfriend during the winter. hmm. lol.. so that means no cuddling with a lovahh or exchanging gifts with a lovahhh for me. aha.

anyyyyyyyyyyyyways.. i deleted my mariah carey youtube video hahah. it was getting annoying because the video wasn't always playing, and because, believe it or not, i've gotten messages on youtube telling me like "DiD y0U kn0 uR ToUCh maH b0Dy viDe0 D0n`T w0RKK??" LOL that typing is annoying. and yeah i sang the song ugly anyway so woohoo it's deleted lol it had more than 7,000 views though. that was cool lol

my right hand is itchy. my mom told me that it means i'm gonna get money soon. (why now???? black friday is like. over!) haha. oh man i hope i do get money ahahah

well time to go to my grandma and grandpa's for lunch! lol it's the "aftershock" of the thanksgiving party. we do that everytime we have a party hahah we throw another get together and finish the leftovers from the night before.

byebyeeee

i'll add more details and stuff later if i remember anything else.

go back in time

it's daylight's savings time! so it would actually be 2:28 AM right now haha. one hour back, woohoooo.

so i suddenly feel less tired lol because of that. how weird.

but then i feel like i'm gonna be sick! ugh i'm scared! my throat feels sore and my nose is kinda runny

ugh i think it's because i danced in the rain today... lol (:

that made my day though. this week the weather has been veryyyyyy rainy. i used to hate rain but i think i love it now. i don't know. i think it's because we haven't had rain in sooo long.

but yeah i sang and danced in the rain hahaha sounds so broadway-corny but hey it was fun lol

so like today i was supposed to go to kenny's birthday party, but he ditched his own party (before it even started). so i was like wtheck?? he went to crash someone else's party. why he gotta do that though? i mean like they live across the street from each other or something like that, but then dude. c'mon now. at least give a heads up, especially after i asked many times if his party is still gonna happen.

so i was at home the wholeeeeeee day except for when i went to church. ugh i wanted to go out man. i haven't in awhile. i noticed that nobody invites me to things anymore lol. i think i noticed that already but yeah i let it go. but dang freal tho i coulda been out! i don't care about how the weather may be lol

so hmmm this week has been busy-ish? went by quickly though.

last week on friday it was halloween! lol i had two costumes on accident. on thursday at the october thirty fest, i was a fairy princess. i was gonna wear it the next day to school on friday, but i thought it was gonna rain be hecka cold, and i didn't want to wear the dress from my costume. so when i was deciding what to wear that morning, i thought: hey! why not just stay in my PJ's? hahaaa so i was a baby in pajamas i guess lol i brought my snoopy stuffed toy, put my hair in pig tails, and put on some freckles. the freckles kinda looked like popped pimples in pictures lollll -_- but oh well. i napped instead of trick or treating hahaa i think my costume suited what i was doing very well.

october thirty fest was fun. i volunteered for the Drama club... sorta. lol. (=0

i spent a lot of the time there with karissa's cute little sister! we kinda matched costumes hahaa
so many people asked if she was my sister, and those that knew i didn't have a sister thought she was my cousin lol. i felt sort of bad because karissa wasn't with her instead, so i kept taking her back to karissa. lol then the 4-year-old ran to me o_o lol that was cute though. makes me want a sister. well actually i think i'd prefer having a little little brother haha. i wanna be daddy's only girl lol jk

so lately i've been reallly planning my cotillion and it's so stressful because i can't even find a place to hold it. and also i haven't contacted all the people i chose for my court yet =x
i am veryyyy late with planning >.<

i'm wondering how it's all going to turn out because like i said before, maybe not everybody will get along? and yeah i really hope everyone can make it to practices. my mom told me i would have to make every practice mandatory because if i hire a cheographer she doesn't want to be paying him for teaching the dance to only some of us or else it'd be a waste of moolah.

my theme colors are pinkish, gold, and brown. i'm not sure about the theme yet, maybe bows or hello kitty. or both since hello kitty has bows.

okay welp my head has been bothering me since 12 hours ago. i think i really am gonna be sick =((((((

i'll put up pictures later lol i'm too lazy. come back later kthanksbye.

!$@83L'z a HYPEBEAST

So like i should be finishing spanish hw right now but eh. i'll do that later lol

i feel like bloggin mah noggin

lol that was lame.


anyways so what did i do today.

oh man i'm gonna tell you right off the bat, today was pretty depressing. do i hide it well? eh depends on the person that knows about alla my crap haha but yeeeeah... )=

so it all started in 2nd block when we did these poems.

we had to write our poems based on what we saw in ink blob stuff that psychologists use.

my teacher mr. kerr said that what we see kinda tells us about who we are or how we're feeling.


ugh everyone saw something happy, like a man on a pogo stick, or a penguin leaning against a pole, but i saw a lonely girl.

ugh dude that hecka sucked because i couldn't see the pogo stick or the penguin or anything else. i kept seeing that freaking girl. ugh.

so i had to write a poem about it and he made us read ours out loud in front of the class.

i read that and the whole room was silent. man that was uber weird. even the teacher was quiet! like he looked like he didn't know what to say.

dude my writings in that class have been pretty sad. i like, need to stop doing that. in the beginning of this year all my stuff was happy. i wrote happy random little stories lol but lately they've been all emo and crap. gaaaaaaaah

so anyways yeah the rest of the day was just okay. i was a hypebeast today lol jk. i just wore one of those scarves and yeah. and i wore my new flats but they kinda hurt my feet! but oh well they're pretty lol

so today i asked sirek if he could be my escort for my cotillion and he said yes. i was kinda happy/relieved because he was my first choice. i thought he was gonna say something like "i'll think about it" or just "nahhh" or something lol. i didn't know if he would really want to be my escort because we kinda drifted =/ but thing is he's like one of my closest guy friends and yeah

oh yeah and man dude i don't even know if i'm gonna have a cotillion anymore because it's so hard to find a place. ugh i hope i do though. i'm only 18 once.

so i've been planning who's gonna be in my court. i didn't really tell them that i chose them yet lol. and i realized that some people don't like others dude.. man that's the thing when it comes to me, because i'm friends with all of them and some of them dislike each other. i hope they learn to deal with it though. like i hope they do it just for me? lol iono. but then yeah dang i didn't realize until a while ago that not all of them get along. aiiiiya.

dude i just realized that senior files is due soon. i didn't even tell my mom and dad about it. oh shooooot lol oh well. i don't even know how it goes! like do we just put it on a paper and give it to the yearbook? or do we just write w/e and give it to them? confuuuuuuuuuuuusing!

OKAY well time to sleep lol i'm really tired. ugh it's 1AM already.

gnight (=

NO MORE MIDTERMS! no more friends?

YESSSSSSSS.

FINALS IS OVER. well, midterms, that is.

last time i checked i had an A in all my classes (except calculus -_- ). and then i found out i had a B+ in government. i needed 1% to get an A-! i hope i got it after the exam.

it was all pretty easy, except calculus. ugh that murders everything.

*sigh* i haven't written in a week. dang. lol i started writing everyday, then every other day, every week!

hm. i'll try to recap. lol basically each day was the same. for like two days i was part of the study group we had in calculus at john's house. it was fun and i learned a lot (things i should have already known). like a bunch of ways to figure out the math and blah blah blah yeah. lol

the night before finals, we all studied and stuff. lol the reason why i say "and stuff" is because some of us (especially me) was distracted. -_- everyone was stressed toward the end of the night, so john played some guitar and i sang! ahhaha. it was cool. then i was like omg let's record it. so we did (:




so lately i haven't been totally focused.. more focused than before, but just not enough. i still keep thinking. of stuff. i went on a myspace diet lol so that was good. it didn't even feel like i was off myspace for a week. it felt like two days. haha.

so anyways what important things did i do this week besides finals?

-senior portraits
-kick it with cousins
-cindy's house

SENIOR PORTRAIIIITS.. ugh i wasn't satisfied with the way my hair turned out )= it looked kind of uneven. and I SMILED WRONG! ugh. i think i lost my smile. sounds emo but i noticed that i've been smiling differently. well i smiled with my dimples closer to my mouth instead of my dimples on my cheeks. so i look fat with a double chin but it's whatever. i wore a hello kitty necklace(= i always planned on doing that, so yeah. yay. i had makeup on, which i disliked, because i felt like there was a pound of stuff on my face lol i couldn't rub my eyes or anything because of my eye makeup. my mom did my makeup, it actually turned out nice, i have to admit, but then i just don't like makeup so much because i don't look like me really. also because it's soooo time consuming to put it on. and omg it took me FOREVER to take it off!! ugh i don't know how to remove eyemakeup lol i put vaseline all over my eyelids to wipe off (because it safely removes makeup), but then it wouldn't go away for some reason! so yeah i just washed my face with soap and water, but then soap got in my eyes. x_X

anywaaaays. what else did i do? well yesterday my dad bought me two new pairs of shoes woohoo. boots and flats. the flats are nice but ugh i think they're sorta tight =/ lol i don't think i would be able to fit them next year if my feet get bigger. but i can't return them cuz they were on sale )=

after that, my brother and i were going to corvallis to pick up my little cousin from school. it's right across the street from my house, so we walked. the crossguard juan blew the whistle and held up his STOP sign hahaha and held out his hand for high fives. dang he's been a crossguard there for hecka years, even when i went to corvallis! i felt like a kid again for a quick moment when i gave him a highfive and crossed the street. man i miss elementary.

so i went to the classroom and she has the same teacher i had in first grade. ms. viera looks the same haha she never ages, it's weird. but then again, she's not even old. probably 30 years old or something, iono.

my little cousin was the last one in the classroom still coloring her pumpkin drawing. hahaha she's always the last one to finish. i think it's because she talks too much in class. that kid.

that night they were having a Halloween carnival! I miss those! they were hecka fun haha. then i wondered if ACE was volunteering for it, because i don't remember getting an email about it. I would have totally volunteered since it's just across the street from home. oh but i didn't have a halloween costume anyway ): i wonder what i'm gonna be for halloween.


after that she was done coloring, her dad picked her up at my house and my older cousin joseph and mya came over. it was fun because we went to target and stuff and ate at his house for dinner. my aunt cooks the second best dinners (my mom cooks the first best heheh). it was so good lol. then we ate birthdaycake icecream that we got from pak 'n save and played scrabble. after that, we played mario party (???) on the wii at my house. my cousins slept over. shawn and kuya joseph then played like lazer tag. i dont know if it was lazer tag, cuz shawn hasn't used it in a long time haha but it wassomething with the toy guns, and they played in the dark. and i stayed on the computer and slept at around 6am. yeeeeahp. i couldn't sleep.

so today was fun because i went to cindy's house! we were supposed to go to sharon's birthday BBQ but it was too late, so we just stayed at her house and worked on our TLG senior file. and we also ate and ate and ate hahah and played with her webcam. OH and we visited justin hahah surprise visit (= hope he didn't get mad hahah it was really a surprise, but yeah his house is so nice dude omggggggggggggggg rich person.


when cindy and i were making the TLG senior files, we went through so many old pictures haha. it sucks because most of the pictures we put on the page are kind of old, because we weren't always that close.. i wish we were though because that would have been nice. all five of us.

when i was younger, like in 4th and 5th grade, my closest friends were marjorie, deborah, lindsey, jacquie, and janice. sort of rylee too haha but she was mostly with deborah. man we were all soooo close, we were like a lil group back in the day. i always thought we were gonna be like "best friends forever" lol like in the movies. i thought we'd grow up together, through middle school and high school, and then catch up after college. i really thought it'd be like that. but ever since marjorie left, we all drifted and things weren't the same, especially since we were in middle school by the time. we all got new friends and drifted, well i still stayed close with marjorie of course, and then lindsey and jacquie and i were still close, but it just wasn't the same. then at around 8th grade jacquie wanted to be with other people or something, and lindsey and i drifted. it's sad because i hoped we would all be close for a long long time. i think i'm the only one that's still kinda bummed about it. i need to grow up.

it's just that i've always wanted to be close to a group of people and bond with them, yah know? like sisterhood traveling pants or whatever lol. that kinda thing. it's nice to just kick it with the ones that know you best. i'm just bummed that i don't have that. TLG coulda been it, but we never clicked, to be honest. it was all separate.

cindy, michelle, daphne and jenn know what i'm talking about.



it'd be cool to have a group of friends i could just bond with all the time when i get older though, like in Friends. haha a grownup group. that'd be nice (=


next subject. haha.
when i went home i was so bored omg lol so far since i came home i stayed on the laptop. and that was about two hours ago. i need a life man

hopefully mañana is great! even though i have nothing to do ):

monday, tuesday, happy days, wednesday thursday happy days, blah blah lol

whoa i haven't blogged in a week. lol oh well i don't think anybody really reads my crap anyway hahaa.

i shall recap what has happened this past week. i'll try to remember what i did each day.


wellll, saturday on the 11th, i went to SF go shopping! and to see Spring Awakening with mendy, karissa, and jenn. dude shopping was the bombbbb lol i accidentally went on a shopping spree i guess. spent over 80 bucks =x

i bought:
-two hello kitty things at urban outfitters (YEEEEEEEEE)
-a bunch of clothes at forever21
-a hat at h&m
-food at bistro burger YUM



so when we were on bart going to sf, we got off and mendy, karissa, and jenn were kinda laughing and i ignored it because i thought they had some kind of inside joke lol but then they were laughing at me and i was like what. and mendy said that the dude in bart was like "DAAAAAAAAMNNN.." like hecka loud when i got out my seat. i was like " .........."

i don't like it when people look at my butt because i feel a bit violated. lol. i mean like how come guys don't look at guys' butts? all butts look the same! two buttcheeks and a buttcrack. lol what's so great? haha


so yeah anyway fast forwardddddddd.. the rest of the day was splendid. while shopping i saw henry! my friend from PCA. i didn't realize how tall he was until he tackled/hugged me lol. haven't seen that dude in ages, so it was nice to see him.

after shopping we saw spring awakening at the curran theatre. dude it was soooo goood. i really love it lol. then after the show we got to meet the actors and actresses. one of them, anthony medina, is hecka hot dude. he's so cute lol




man i loveeeed walking in the city at night. i love the city lights in the dim streets and stuff. it'd be so nice to like link arms with somebody and just stroll along like that lollll

so that night i got home at like almost 1 i think? i forgot. but yeah i guess it was late.


on sunday, i didn't go to church because i overslept. well, nobody went to church actually, because my mom had to go to some event at work and i don't know, i guess my brother just didn't go. um that's all i remember about sunday right now lol

on monday i went to school all tired and stuff. and i forgot what happened that day too. crap my membory is hecka bad lol

dude i forgot tuesday.... the hell?

and wednesday was a CPT day. dude why can't i remember anything?!??!??!!!!! maybe cuz my days have been boring? i don't remember if it was on wednesday, but nick, karissa, and justin told me they chose me for publicist for the drama club! i was like OMGGGGG YAYYYYY i did a happy dance in front of them by accident but yayyyyyyyyy hahaha.

thursday.. well it was homecoming week actually, but nothing special really happened. i don't even know the whole theme to homecoming this year! was it cinema?????? heroes??????? somebody tell me lolll cuz everything is so vague at school nowadays. our school spirit is soooooo dead now. )= that sucks considering it's senior year.

on friday, yesterday, we had a day time homecoming rally. it wasn't that fun lol i tried to make the most of it by screaming a lot but it didn't really do any good lol. i didn't understand the freshmen skit at alllll until i interviewed one of the freshman officers for journalism. apparently their skit was about nacho libre keeping his religion lollll i was like wth when did that happen in ur skit? hahah. then the sophomores were okay lol there was some breakdancer kid in their dance. dude i don't remember their theme. the juniors... pirates of the carribean........ hahahah i'm sorry but the dance that the girls did.. tsk tsk they made themselves look like.... lol.. skanks? lol nah thats a harsh word. it's somewhere along those lines. lol they were crawling on the floor and going under each other and such lol so weird.

and the senior skit/dance was the best. we had a very clear script and so it was really easy to understand, and the somoan dance by the football team was cool. it really fit our indiana jones theme.

so today was heckof chill, i love today. but then at the same tim i'm so lazy! i should have, could have, would have done my personal statement... but noOoooOOOOOoooo i just had to have a lazy butt! -_- all day i ate, went on the internet, and played rockband. now that's lazy. oh yeah and i put on makeup to see if i could do it myself for my senior portrait.. let's just say it didn't work out lol. i think i look so weird with makeup. i don't know.

so this morning was sooooo goood because i woke up all untired and stuff lol and i made myself the ULTIMATE HOT BREAKFAST BOWL. thaaaaaas riiiiight. theeeee ultimate hot breakfast bowl. lol if you didn't know, i love cooking breakfasts. so i kinda invented this spicey breakfast bowl. well not the bowl, but the food inside it, duh lol anyways so what i do is make a goooooooood omlette with ham and cheese and eggs and stuff like that, garlic powder, pepper, milk, whatever. then when it's done, i put it on top of spiced up rice. the rice has tobasco sauce. omg yum then i had orange juice to drink. i dont know why but i like eating spicy stuff in the morning lol

so yeah anyways, earlier tonight i was talking to ben on the phone and lmao it was so funny. he probably doesn't want me to put up what happened so yeah i'll just laugh and laugh and laugh (= lol i didn't know talking to ben on the phone could be so fun hahahahah


so just a few hours ago michelle and i tried to webcam but then her camera was being funny lollll so we're just gonna try it tomorrow. the last time i webcammed with somebody was like probably two years ago. (HI MICHELLLLLEEE! LOL)

oh yeah and earlier was the homecoming game.

i heard tim didn't win senior homecoming king! :( lol oh well there's always prom? hahah

i didn't go because i didn't have a way there ): i kinda wish i went tho because it's senior year and all blah blah blah. and all my friends were there i guess. and i wanted to see the floats! i didn't help out with the float. this is the first year i didn't help out for homecoming. first time i wasn't helping with the float, and first time not being in the skit/dance. i'm starting to regret it but whatever. i've been so busy i could never stay after school to help. ugh calculus is killing me my grade cereally slipped in there. homework is a paiiiiiiiiin.


but anyway what am i doing tomorrow. i ain't know. church+hw+eat lol

if i remember anything that i didn't mention, i'll add it later... if i'm not lazy. haha

all that and a bag of chips

so like i was gonna go to sleep but then i remembered i haven't blogged! lol sooo like the loser i am, i shall mention what has been going on the past couple of days.

i am very stressed with calculus still. i'm understanding it more, but only because we started a new section or chapter or whatever we are on.

anyways so hmm let's see what happened on the 7th, 8th, 9th, and 10th? lol

well on tuesday i don't remember what happenned anymore lol so let's skip that

oh shoot dude i forgot what i did wednesday too wtheck?!

uh. well. yesterday the 9th (or 2 days ago, since it's almost 2 in the morning right now lol) i made a card for me and the other library volunteers (thuan, suzette, vivian, karissa, and wafa) to sign. the card was for ms. marks, the new librarian. she moved out of arroyo ALREADY! )= i have to say, she is really one of the nicest people i've met. and that is pretty much an understatement.

hmmmm. so this morning (the 10th), in journalism, when talking about freshmen or something, this girl (forgot her name) in class was like,

"yeah they think they're all that and a bag of chips, but they're not even the wrapper!"

lol i thoguht that was funny. only because it wasn't that funny hahah

so later on that day i had lots of things to do! it feels kinda good to be busy lol but at the same time it's like aahhhhhhhhhh. i had like 4 club meetings to go to since i'm tresurer in the FAST (filipino-american student team) club and vice president in fashion club. i also had an informational meeting to go to about christmas caroling lol i've never done that before so i thought that'd be cool. and then i also had an interview with the drama club officers cuz i want to be their publicity officer, but i went afterschool so that was cool.

so like tomorrow i'm going to san francisco for the first time since summer! i'm gonna go shopping and watch Spring Awakening with mendy, jenn, and karissa. woohooooo. lol i should be sleeping right now because i know i might oversleep O_O

with that said, i shall say good night.

yeah. goodnight. lol
i feel like i'm missing tons of details, but oh well.

peacelove&lol,
!$@831

OH YEAH AND I WANT THIS OMG I AM ON A MISSION TO FIND THESE IN SF TOMORROW

the stupid things.

i am very bummed. like bummer than the bummiest bummed. we got our calculus test back and i didn't do so hot on it. at all. ugh calculus is so stupid because it makes me feel stupid.

if calculus was a person i would scream at it and punch it and give it 87575324034 pi squared black eyes. yeeeah lol

so today was alright. things are becoming... back to norman? but i don't like it all that much i don't know why.

first block was the same ole stuff. i hope i don't get sick because i sit between my two friends that are sick and another sick one behind me. aaaaaah oh well i might be sick later anyway because the weather change.


in creative writing i read out loud my story that i wrote about a girl in a cafe and she was a workaholic. she was so busy that she never had a chance to love, and then when she finally did, she pushed the dude away because of work, and he never came back and then she later became lonely. lol sounds emo but yah the assignment was to write a story on a picture we chose. and i chose a pic of a lady in a cafe.


no more choir practices mean no more busy lunches. which means lonely isabel lol. so i went to c-6. or whatever that room was. the DECA room. mrs. c's room. lol anyways enough with the synonyms. yeah i went there and tried helping cindy decide which shirt design DECA should have. honestly i didn't like any of them lol but like two of them were better than the rest. one of the shirts had a green checkmark lol it reminded me of that weird commercial. "check into cash!" lol sounds stupidooo

anyways so yeah after that thats when i got my test score. -_- i would rather not talk about it.

so yah then 4th block we had a test. ahhhhhhh it was easy but it was hard.

today the library was closed so i got to go home.

when i got home i went on the computer a lot. ugh distractions. i am currently addicted to listening to Passion's cover of "stupid things." i keep playing it over and over today for some reason. i wish i could play piano so i could do what he does.



so anyways since i've been home, i ate, went on the computer, went on the computer some more, attempted homework, went on the computer, ate, and went on the computer, and did hw, then now i'm here lol and my eyes hurt.


OH and i got to talk to marjorie for the first time in a BAGILLIONNNNN years! it was a really nice catch up. lol we catch up hecka fast iono how we do it, especially since we only talked for an hour. i really miss her. not seeing her is like chocolate without the sweetness. lol that was a stupid simile but it works?????????

so yah and this seems somewhat short lol but oh well i'm tired adios!

Boy oh boy..

boy oh boy i'm starting to blog every other day.

well friday was another day. friday i went to school and worked at the library after school. lolll i put tape on thuan's butt while we were taping up little signs on the wall. i hope he doesn't get mad if he reads this lol(: so after that thuan and suzette were still there too and they were so cute. they seem like they're like each others' best friends and boyfriend/girlfriend. they are like my new favourite couple lol

anyways so i can't remember what exactly i did last night except for study for SAT's.

then today, or should i say yesterday (saturday) i woke up at 7 something to take the SAT's at bohannon. when my mom and i got to the car, she asked me "okay where's bohannon." i'm like, "are you kidding me?" and she wasn't kidding. she pulled a tim too. lol

so i told her where it was even tho she turned the wrong way and stuff. then i got there on time and was with vivian. then later blah blah blah in line for checking in, i saw francis already in a room, dancing near the window LOL. that was random but at the same time it wasn't because francis is a kind of person that wouldn't dread a test.

anyways then yeah my mom and dad picked me up and we went to home depot and then to in&out. there i saw michelle, nip, and robert. and i think i saw rachel too but i couldn't tell. well yeah the new in&out is packed dude! it was hard to find a seat, but luckily there were exactly three seats next to nip&michelle, so we sat next to them.

i ordered a number 2: cheeseburger (no onions), fries, and a drink. yum fatness

i was hoping i would see sergio there since he works there, so i can make fun of him. jk. he was off tho i think.

then after that i looked around the house for white linen or anything to make a toga because my cousin's christine's birthday party theme was.. wearing togas? so yeah i couldn't find anything so i just ended up wearing a simple dress. everyone changed later anyway.

when i was there i saw brian. we haven't seen each other in like. a year. i have to admit it was actually nice to see him again even though we drifted a lot and had a thing before. he was a really good friend of mine and i missed hanging out with him, christine, and her boyfriend mikey like i used to last year.

so during the party we danced and played rockband, but i didn't play til the end of the party lol. then i had to go. and here i aaaaam all tired. yet i can't sleep.

i will post up a picture when christine sends me them lol

Enough with it.

I want to go away.










and eat lots of icecream.
kbye

24/7?!

*siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh* calculus is killing me, man. i'm sitll not done with homework ugh and i have spanish to do and we have to read this LOOOOOONG spanish story and answer questions like wtheck dude )=


so i didn't get to blog yesterday and i don't remember too much of what has happened yesterday. if i remember i'll explain later? lol yah

well today i woke up really late and was late to journalism but oh well.

first block was okay. today was a cpt day so i was glad to get out early today.

second block was pretty cool and laid back like always. today we read stuff that we wrote. we had to write it, present it to the class by reading it, and the clas had to guess the theme of it. i hecka did mine wrong so when i read mine i just put out hecka emotion so maybe i could get an A? ahaha i can tell my teacher really liked it woohoo. the theme of my thingy was being hurt.


after that there was no lunch cuz of cpt, and i was hecka hungry. anyways so in calculus oh man i was so stuck. and i was sleepy. dillon helps me a lot in that class but i don't wanna bother him so i try not asking him that much for help. but then sam helps me even when i don't ask lol i said some stupid things in calc, i forgot what they were. but mable sam and dillon laughed or something iono lol i was confused

so at lunch i went to the Interact meeting and sat with cindy, and when kenny came in the room we were like WOO HOOOOOO CONGRATS KENNY ON UR LISCENSE!!!! ahaha that was funny

then for the last like. 5-10 mins of lunch, i stood outside with anh, kenny, kevin, and bj until the bell rang.

4th block. oh man was i tired. i was falling asleep ugh omg i think schni schni saw me lol i must have looked funny with my eyes closing and my head falling down and going up when i was falling asleep

after school i went to my locker and gave sirek something. it was kinda a relief to finally give it because i was wanting to give it on monday but i couldnt since i didnt see him

after that i worked in the library for like 3 hours. man that was actually tiring lol i had to scan books and desensitize books and shelf read and stamp and stuff. i think thats the most i've done in the library in one day

oh shoot that reminds me i have to make a collage for the library. a;klhfdalkdfh;aodfadfkh ugh

funny thing happened in the library today. i was with thuan and vivian in the office room of the library, and the librarian went to the bathroom. then we were looking through old books and they had like paintings of indians with boobs and stuff lol and i stamped them with the word "DISCARD" and then they were saying stuff i forgot what, and then i sarcastically said "i like boobs!" and the librarian came out and heard me HAHA oh man she prolly doesnt see me the same way anymore

so yah after that vivian and i walked halfway to karissa's house after that. she went to karissas then i went back to school so my dad could pick me up there. my dad bought me jack n the box yum that was good. i love curly fries

lol my dad told me he saw sergio working at in&out ahhahaha i shall visit him soon

so when i got home i ate my food then watched some gilmore girls at 5. i miss watching that show everyday. then i accidentally napped from 5:30 til about 7:30, 8ish? mannnn there went my homework time -_-

and then yah i ate dinner blah blah blah and procrastinated on hw. and here i am. HOLY CRAP IT'S 1:26AM WTH i thought it was 12 SOMETHING. omg yah well i shall go. ughhh

24 HOURS A DAY AINT ENOUGH